I’ve been paying attention to this urge inside of me. I have noticed that I’m in a constant search for happiness. Not the happiness you may be thinking of, but the joy that you get in the moment of now. Whenever I find those moments that aren’t filled with stress, when I’m not worrying about tomorrow’s deadline, I want to soak in them and never leave. I’m addicted to work and have a hard time taking consistent time off, but lately God has been teaching me how to just shut up and enjoy Him.

Today I had the privilege of playing golf with one of my best friends, in the most beautiful part of Austin, on greens that I’ll never be able to afford. It was unreal the beauty that I was allowed to play in. Infant deer were as close as 15 yards from me as I chipped. One of the holes on this course made the list of “The Top 18 Most Beautiful Holes of Golf in Texas”. This is where millionaires play. 

If you don’t know, I’m very far from being accused of being a millionaire.

We walked through this resort that I estimate to cost around $100 million to build. I was dressed as nice as I usually dress, and I felt like a poor man. Nothing profound here, but, I’ve caught myself paying attention to the different smells in this environment – weird I know. This whole day was filled with smells, textures, tastes, service, and sights that I normally never encounter.

It was refreshing and nice break from the routine of work. We work so much, and enjoy so little of what God has given us. 

Now, you don’t have to drop a ton of coin to experience this truth, but I was reminded today that one day I won’t work and toil, but will just marvel and worship my Creator. Can it please happen tomorrow?