I will fail at trying to describe the feelings I’m experiencing. But if I don’t try, I won’t feel good about myself.

Yesterday
I saw a close friend I haven’t seen in almost two years. He represents the good I experienced in one of the darkest times of my life so far. Without him and his wife, I’d be hopelessly lost. I felt so much warmth and love being around him. It was a surprise to run into him since he lives a couple of states away. I can’t describe the feelings I had when he finally had to walk away to finish work at the hotel. I had to watch him as he walked away. I struggled and didn’t want to, but I had to see him with my eyes as much as I could. I don’t know if you’ve been blessed with a friend like that, but some of us only get one in a life time. Besides my wife and outside of family, I’ve been blessed with about 4 or 5 people I feel that strong about. I love friends.

As he walked out of the bowling alley we met in, I was reminded what life was like 24 months ago. It took everything within me not to cry.

Today
My aunt was in town on military business, ironcially, just as my friend was yesterday. Its been a few months since I’ve seen her. I was reminded of my family in Dallas, and wanted to jump in the car and go see them. For whatever reason, I was very aware of most of my senses as we ate dinner. We ate in a part of town I had not yet explored. It was my first time to this restaurant. I smelt four different colognes and perfumes I had never smelled before. Some of the textures and flavor of the food I ate was new. I was immersed in this sensational experience of both very old and traditional elements (my relative and family memories), my common elements (me, my wife, my clothes, my car, my smell), and these new elements (restaurant, atmosphere smell, food, location). It was just crazy. 

Not sure what to do with it all, but thought I’d share it with the two people who read my blog – hi mom.